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“What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Tuesday, September 1st, 2009

Busting Loose question: “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

I was thinking to myself while walking on the trail one morning about Busting Loose. Just how is it that I somehow create a unique holographic experience in my unique personal Human Game. and how living more into Phase 2 might look and feel?

The following thought popped into my holographic head.

I remember growing up and being asked by relatives and family friends, “And what do YOU want to be when YOU grow up, little boy?” And I even remember asking others folks’ kids that same question. And at one point I even harbored the idea that I was doing them some kind of a favor by helping them focus their thinking on how they were “going to turn out” and what they were going to do with their life. Big favor. R-i-i-i-g-h-t.

And then another thought popped up in direct response: “Wait…..that’s not a supportive question for Busting Loose and living into Phase 2.”

A “right,” or “right-er” question would be, “So … what is it that you just love doing/exploring right now, and how do you allow yourself to do/explore more of that until something else strikes your fancy?”

Seems to me like that’s what living reactively in the moment, from and into inspiration would look and feel like.

And then I “just happened” to create Susan from our first workshop on the trail (coincidence, wink, wink, nudge, nudge) and I had her start this great mutual conversation about how certain things are “working” and “not working,” and if I do The Process on a discomfort and then just leave it alone, is that what I really want? Is that what I’m really supposed to be doing? Even if the thing that is not working, could be improved, and seems like it should be “important” to me – and maybe to “others,” completely forgetting that all those “others” are just reflections of me.

Is it OK to just do The Process and reclaim the power and then just let go? Even if nothing in the hologram is real and it’s completely made up by me – My Consciousness – My Expanded Self?

And the answer that came into my holographic awareness was, “I think that after doing The Process and reclaiming whatever power you can in a given pass, if it’s something you then feel would be fun or exciting, then that would be one “to do.” And if  your “doing” pushes back, it’s only pushing back because that’s the way you want(ed) that particular game or inning or quarter to play out. And maybe it then becomes “Challenging,” “Worthwhile,” “Productive,” “Satisfying” as I remind myself that I (Consciousness, Expanded Self) just made it all up anyway through patterns in The Field.

And any discomfort experienced in any pushing back is “just an Egg” with Power in it saying, “Here’s more of your Power for you to reclaim if you want to in this moment.” And you can then use this new, additionally reclaimed Power to stay on this particular ride a little longer, and/or noticing a next or different ride you feel “inspired” to experience or explore. Hot damn! Busting Loose!